My life to this day has had many ups and downs. A lot of happy and fun moments. But sometimes overshadowed by not so nice things. When I was 17 years old my brother died, he was born with a heart problem. He died when he was 25 years old. He left behind two children, a boy to an ex-girlfriend and a girl to his current wife. This was one of the saddest things to happen in my life. A couple of years later his wife died from a drug overdose, leaving behind a parentless child.
A couple of months after my brother's death I started drinking and smoking weed and cigarettes. Some of this was due to peer pressure but most of it was to replace the pain I was feeling. We all make choices and some of them are not good. I did some pretty stupid things in this period of my life.
About 8 years ago, I can't quite remember how long ago, one of my sisters got leukaemia. She had a 50:50 chances of surviving. Fortunately my other sister was a match to her bone marrow, I was a match but no as good as my other sister. So now she is still in remission and going well. But she had intense chemotherapy and this has changed her life forever. Her husband couldn't handle the whole thing so while she was in hospital he was off partying and seeing other women. As you have probably guessed they are no longer married.
About 3-4 years ago, my sister who had leukaemia son died. He was only 13 years old. His father had given him some money to buy his sisters some presents for Christmas, as it was only a couple of day before Christmas day. So he raced out the door and got on his bicycle and started to ride to the local shopping centre. He was riding on the road and when he went around a corner a car was turning up and hit him. The driver wasn't speeding or drink driving. He died shortly after.
These would be the major events, there have been smaller ones. Like my dad having cancer 2-3 times, he is all right at the moment. But is getting sick from smoking.
I stopped smoking weed and cigarettes about 9 years ago and haven't done either since. Drinking on the other hand is a different thing. I have drank on and off for the last few years. But have stopped at the moment. The last year has been very stressful, a breakdown from a previous job, I had a head on car accident and I went bankrupt this year. I am no longer using alcohol to replace that pain. I am also learning to relax and take my time, taking time to smell the roses and enjoy my own family and my one year old son who is the best little boy I could possibly hope for.
All this stuff that has happened in my life has helped me to be a better person, to enjoy life and have no regrets because you just don't know what will happen tomorrow or when you will die.
I have been a Christian for about 9 years which has helped me along the way, of course I have asked God why all these things happen, they must happen for some reason, and everybody must die and everybody dies in different ways.
My doctor has got me on medication for anxiety from the car accident and probably everything else that's happened but I'm hanging in there and quite happy and positive about our future and life. You think you are over something then it hits you. But I'm getting there. I'm learning to live life all over again. Be happy people.
Anyway I can fit in everything because it would take me took long to write. Maybe another time.
