A Lover's Woes

I live, but for what reason?

When you are no longer with me.

A part of me wanted to end my life when you left but a larger part of me wanted to stay put in this horrible world with the hope of your return.

For many nights I waited, not even a shadow of yours showed up to greet me upon my woes.

Perhaps you had moved on and started to live a life that doesn't include me or perhaps you are halfway in your journey back to me.

What have I done wrong?

What drove you to leave?

Is it because of the fact that I loved you so?

Just answer me, yes or no.

You were always my priority; I had always made sure that you were treated well.

I thought we shared something special, a bond that cannot be easily broken down?

I guess I was not fully awake when I thought of it that way.

I was enough for you before, what modified it all?

Is it my way of approach?

Had I been horrible to you?

When you told me that you loved me, were you saying the truth?

You mean the world to me---you mean everything to me.

You were the person whom I wanted to spend the rest of my life with.

You were the one whom I wanted to share my sadness and happiness, my failures and successes with.

I gave you everything you had ever needed and wanted, I pleased your every expectation and clothed your every fantasy only to find out that I was never in your heart.

You were with me through every difficulty, through every challenge and we always came out as victors.

"We're in this together", that was what you vowed to me.

For several years you stood by that but what happened one distressed night?

You left me and I let you go without a fight.

That was stupid of me and that was unpredictable of you.

A match made in heaven that was what we were, you were my soul mate and I was yours. We were lovers, two people who had each other's heart, each filled with promises of Love that was to last forever.

I guess, they were right, promises were meant to be broken.

Questions still linger my head, piercing my heart with every word like a sword.

Where are you and why did you leave?

Do you love me?

Will you ever come back?

Was I not enough reason for you to stay?

I shall wait for your answers come what may.