It took me weeks to decide whether I am going to write a reflection of this study guide Battlefield Of The Mind made by Joyce Meyer, the well-known author and preacher in USA. There are lots of things to talk about. And, there are lots of hidden inner emotions from the pasts to uncover. So, I decided to write this down to heal myself and to open up to my fellow strugglers.
My childhood is not that happy as anybody expected. I had a former yaya who harmed me physically, mentally, and spiritually. I could still remember the details of those incidents. And, the memories turned out to be nightmares everytime I sleep. I would consider this a battle in my mind.
Another dreadful experience in the pasts to uncover is my working situation at a paper retail store at Sta. Elena St. I do not like the way that the bodegeros and tinderos treated me. I really feel disgusted when they verbally harrassed me. According to the owner, verbally harrassing using green jokes are very common to them. But, I am not used to it. It is very disgusting in my own opinion. And, I feel I am not respected in that way of treatment. One of them threatened to hurt my father because I tried to confront them verbally because I could not bear to see their faces any longer. That is another battle in my mind I would consider. But, past is past. I should forgive, forget, and move on. My future is bright and clear. It is not my own fault , but it is the way Satan would attack me in my spirit.
Therefore, I am wrestling against principalities, powers, rulers of darkness, and spiritual hosts of wickedness. Lucifer a.k.a. Satan is a father of lies and a murderer of beginning and end. Since my mind is idle after my working contract was ended last March, the devil started to attack my thoughts using filthy ideas.
Surely, the word of God is the powerful arsenal weapon which would bring me to the obedience of God and healing. If I would abide in God's word, then the truth shall set me free for the promises God has given to every believers.
I am also tempted to the lustfulness of this world. I admit that I am also a sinner like any fellow. I firmly believe in which I could confess out from my mouth about my dreadful sins, I could be reconciled with Jesus Christ who offered His life for God's wrath for humanity's wickedness. Jesus Christ's blood healed me and covered my sins.
I would not give up to any temptations for the blessings of God has descended upon me. Little by little, the renewal of my mind and the healing of my brokeness would be processed. If I have the Spirit within me, I would have the grace to conquer my temptations. It would be better if I continue to meditate on God's words so that my mind would bind in His powerful grace.
In the end, I realize that God is truly merciful, I do not recognize His mercy when I am down or feel depressed. But, as I reflected upon the Scriptures, God is sure a Wonderful Counselor and Merciful God.
