How I Learned to Like Myself

I was about 28 years old and I was very much enamored with a young fellow. I can remember thinking about him and how much I enjoyed being with him and wanted very much for him t like me. I was not sure how he felt about me, but in my immature way, the way a lot of young girls or young women do today is try to be something that we are not or try to be something that the media tries to make a women be. (Perfect) The thing of it is most women are not like celebrities out there. I' am sorry I am ahead of myself here. Let me get back to my story of my old boyfriend. He had no idea what happened to me that fateful day, I was thinking that if I could change one thing about me that I feel my boyfriend would like better than what I have or am, what would it be. Well, I thought, maybe I would change my face, make my eyes prettier, my lips fuller, my hair a different color, as you can see I started at the top and continued to the bottom and changed everything about myself until I was picturing a whole new me. I was so excited for my boyfriend to see the new me. Then I pictured my boyfriend seeing the new me.

I saw him with a beautiful big smile, with sparkly eyes and he was facing me with him arms opened wide. We were walking to each other and we were both smiling. I was so happy and so pleased that he liked the new way that I looked. But then something happened I did not expect. I was looking at him and he seemed to be looking past me, my boyfriend moved passed me to walked up to her, the old me. I was stunned. I could not believe it. I had changed that person, into a whole new person. Why was he hugging her? I looked at her. She wasn't bad looking really. But looking at the scene, I kind of felt betrayed. Not by my boyfriend, but by myself. Something in me stopped the dream and decided then and there that I need to learn to like who I am, inside and out. My hair, eyes, smile, my personality, everything. I began a relationship with that girl. I found that she is not so bad. I began to be alone with her and get to know her. Eventually I left that other old self behind and embraced the new self. I found I can be proud of her and I have never looked back since. Since then I had accomplished much and am just getting started.