Hello to the new me, it is time for a change. Not every aspect of life exactly because there are some good things. I am not going to change who I am ultimately. Then there are matters of the heart, I would never change for the world. However, lots of other things will be altered.
I have been shy for a lot of my life to the point it is crippling my life, my happiness. So I am definitely going to be working on changing that.
Another thing is that I am tired of feeling like I am trapped in a body that I am ashamed of. Every time I look in the mirror I cringe, sometimes cry, most of the time just loathe what I see staring back. I want to look in the mirror and be happy with what I see.
However, I am not going on a “diet.” Instead, I will call it a lifestyle change. Diets have always failed with me and I want something I can commit to.
My heart is on the road to being fully recovered from my past, and happy. I want my mind to feel that way as well.
There are so many things I want to do with my life. A writer will always be a part of that. However, my dreams are far beyond just writing. Theatre has always been my dream, and I want to pursue that one day. My family has told me that I could never do it, that I was not good enough, and I always believed that they were right. Its time to prove to myself that I can be what I want to be.
The hardest of my lifestyle change is going to be quitting my so called, “Bad Habit.” It’s now time to finally try to stop. I have always said that it was part of my life because it had basically become an addiction. I always said that I would kick the bucket 60 times before I’d kick the habit like it says in one of my favorite songs by the Dresden Dolls.
So here is to a brand new start!
I will keep up to date with my progress in my normal journal , “Alexis Revolution’s Life.” I just need the change in words to see it, and to help me follow through.
Thanks for reading. Come back and read my work anytime
