Today is a good day... but like others not the day I truly want. You know the day the one day where everything is perfect. Your life is just as you imagined it. No one gets to that day because everyone really doesn’t know what they truly want. When things get close they always want more. think about this if you want to have a huge wealth as you get closer to that goal you start to add to the goal like the wealth and the car, the house ect. So your original goal become distorted with greed or other feeling you truly were not working for, sure you wanted the wealth to buy these things but you lost sight of your goal. My goal is very reachable but I will never get to experience it not saying it will never happen. My goal is to grow old with my wife and die with her one day. But I’m no fortune teller so maybe I will maybe I won’t. If we ever part I know that I wont stop trying to win her back. She’s my only one. I’m not saying all of this because I think she going to read this... frankly she knows about this site but never looks to see what I write about. she is young and confused about her own life and me and her are working out our differences which I think I finally know how stupid I really am when it comes to women and I’m lucky I even gotten this far being married and all...lol.... so did some chores just now felt good that I have something to do to keep me busy. I just really want to go out! I want out of my life I want to just be free to not have so much responsibility but I have it. Sometimes it good to wish. I really want things to get better between my wife and I but don’t know how it will happen. I feel like crap because I feel ill never please her so what am I to do? Over time I’m sure it will get better and my feelings will fade to pure love but I feel like I’m waiting for something that I know will never happen. Odd feeling it is. I’ve never felt this way but it will pass...I think...I hope... my goal for my self may not come true but this doubt is why it wont positive is the way to live your life... your never disappointed... or my favorite movie quote is from doge ball " I feel if you never have a goal you have nothing to reach, this way your never disappointed." great quote I know its not exact but its close to what is said. This is becoming unproductive so ill stop it here not as long as my last ramble but o well till next time.
