One year after my graduation...
I immediately applied for (what I think at that time) was the closest job, suitable for my graduated course.
Despite other people's coaching of me applying for this and that, I still insisted on proceeding with the first and last company I gave my resume to (personally). And besides, I have one of my barkadas with me, as the other applicant. Good thing, we both made it.
Experiences with the company was mixed. There were a lot of short expectations coming from me, more on frustrations, though I was thankful I had my friend with me.
We made each other our strength. It was my first time to be in the "real world", and I was not ready at that time to get my "first taste" of it, and so I would say, it was a very difficult path. Despite it all, I learned a lot of things. I was able to equipped myself with values and principles in life, as an individual and as part of the society.
Sometimes, being too idealistic with this kind of community that we have, would only get you frustrated and numb. That's one of the realizations I had.
One year after my resignation with the company...
I lied, just to escape with my misery and frustrations. I tried to emerge from what felt like a pit of black hole, but the first try was a failure. Another realization, I need to rest. I need to be with myself, make some kind of retreat to rejuvinate the "me". It took me a month to regain a little of "me", but it took me one year after, to fully regain the "me". One try after another.
During the regaining process, what I did was talk to friends, deep-thinking, and best of all, prayed. One year after, I just felt things came back... one by one. It wasn't the same exact things that was broken or damaged, but with the renewed "me", it was someone more mature and more calloused with experiences. I am really very thankful for all the people who helped me along the way, and also to those who were not really helpful. I believed that they had helped me in some way.
One year after, I am looking forward to a bright and stable future with the person I love... Learning from each other and building life together. Sharing past experiences year after year while sitting by a fire, sipping a hot drink and just lying there, feeling cozy and homey.
One year after...
