In reality I probably would never post an ad like that; or even place one at all. Not only because that method of dating isn’t for me, but because I know I would get responses from a bunch of morons. Actually, that is a perfect example of how picky I am when it comes to dating. Many people confuse how picky I am for a lack of optimism. I’m not going to lie, I haven’t had a successful relationship in almost two years and maybe I have become a little cynical towards the dating scene. However, the problem lies in the lack of honest eyes. That probably sounds pretty lame because it rhymes but think of it this way: In order for a relationship to work I have to trust the person.
While it easily weeds out the good men from the stupid men, it also leads to many dateless nights. Sometimes I even find myself in situations where I end up telling the guy to leave in the middle of the evening. While watching a movie I’ll occasionally look over at him and try to make eye contact. Almost always, the confused male either takes this as a hint at sex, or thinks I’m just looking at him because he’s so darn attractive. Wow, is he wrong. In these situations he’ll look back at me and I’ll usually know what he’s thinking. This isn’t because of my amazing psychological skills; I usually can figure it out because he’ll try to climb on top of me clumsily. In these cases I get a kick out of watching his eyes go all the way from my arm, to my hand and then to my finger; which is pointing to the door. I try not to laugh as I watch him leave.
I know that not all men are like this, but I have yet to find one that I can connect with. When I say that I want them to have honest eyes, I only mean that when they look at me they should see me as I am. I don’t want him to look at me and see what he wishes I would be. I don’t want him to only see the physical color of my eyes or that I have a freckle on my cheek. I want him to see me. I would also love to see depth in his eyes; something that allows me to feel comfortable because I know that there is more to him, just like there is more to me.
