It was a beautiful sunny Sunday at Agan-an beach when I met Julius, a very charming yet down-to-earth guy whose looks could kill a thousand women. My family and I were there to celebrate my cousin's 30th birthday and Julius was also with a bunch of young men who held their reunion at Villa levita beach resort. At first, I just ignored him because he looked arrogant, but when he smiled while handing me the digital camera which I almost lost, I realized how charismatic he was. Julius introduced me to his friends but I declined to join them because family get-togethers don't happen oftentimes. But before I went back to our cottage, Julius and I exchanged cellphone numbers.
Our cottage was next to julius' so it was impossible for me not to notice his stolen gazes at me. After a while my cellphone beeped and surprisingly got his first ever message which was stated this way “ hello cherry, it was great knowing a beautiful woman like you.” I felt so flattered after reading it. Although a lot of people think I'm beautiful, but receiving such compliment from someone as drop-dead gorgeous as Julius was if not startling, very overwhelming.I texted him back saying “thank you” because honestly at that time, I did not know what to say.
After that meeting with Julius at the beach, I decided to stop my wishful thinking of him for I considered it wrong to be obsessed with a different guy when you're about to get married. I was already engaged to Oliver, a very affectionate guy and a husband material My family and friends rooted for him because of his good qualities. For one week, I was able to ignore Julius' text messages and calls which made me think, he would back off from the battle, but I was wrong because when I went out of my office on a fine Monday afternoon, Julius was right there waiting for me. He invited me to have a drive around town .I suddenly felt an irresistible pull towards Julius that I accepted his invitation. After our dinner, he sent me home thanking me for the company and leaving me a surprise goodnight kiss.
After that, I already found myself filled with his thoughts and was definitely under his spell. As much as I wanted to get him out of my head I just couldn't. Our silent meetings then went on. From watching movies to out of town rides. Julius, didn't demand for a commitment, which I at that time thought was beneficial to me because I couldn't also afford to beak up with Oliver .Julius and I really had so much fun until one evening, when we we're about to get a room in a hotel, I saw Oliver and his business partners looking at us with so much anger in their eyes. I was shocked, embarrassed and nervous. Shocked because I never expected to see my fiancée there. Embarrassed because his business partners have high regard of me as I was always known of being honest, refined and conservative. Nervous, because I knew, the situation triggered violence. Without delay, Julius and I went back on our way. While in the car, no one ever started a conversation until I reached home.
You might say, I could have lied to Oliver and his friends by making up stories why Julius and I were there. But how could I when we we're caught holding hands and anyone could see us would either think or say we're a newly wed couple.
The day after that embarrassing incident, Oliver called me saying, the wedding is off, and our relationship ended. It was then when I realized how much I love my fiance and what an immoral girlfriend I had been to him. I couldn't even forgive myself for the embarrassment and pain I have caused Oliver. I know I had lost him for my impulsive adventure with a guy who in my own assessment, had never even cared for me from the start. What made me say so? Julius never even called nor texted me after that. I only learned from his office mates that he will soon be leaving for Australia for his girlfriend who is a nurse, sponsored him a fiancée visa.. Was I hurt to know that? Yes, but not even half as hurt as losing the person I want to spend the rest of my life with. I am very repentant of what happened. I want to ask for forgiveness from Oliver, but I don't a have a face to talk to him. And I don't even know if he can ever forgive me. I don't know if it's too much to ask but I want more than forgiveness, I want his love back. I don't know if there would still be a chance for us to reunite, knowing that it's not only Oliver who hates me but also his family and friends. Jorge, I don't know what to do now. I hope I can ease the pain of my bleeding heart.
