The Pound War: is It Really Worth It?

I just got off the phone with my agent. Every time I talk to him I get depressed.

I am getting a bit on the old side for my job; I know this and accept it as fact. I knew the day would come from the moment I stepped onto the set of my first shoot 10 years ago.

My career has aged with me, I started as a pin up for S.G. and went from there to fashion and glamour, and from there to makeup and hair.

I want to get into conceptual and art modeling now, so my path can merge with the style I taken with MY art.

That aspiration is proving to be a difficult transition.

I can't model forever. And I want the transition to be a smooth one. Eek.

Anyway, I am way off base here... the conversation with my agent was about a shoot that I am supposed to audition for next month... a fashion shoot, but my agent wants me to lose 20 lbs first...I'm not sure it is that important to me.

As I get older, it harder to keep the figure I had at 18, and I accept this gracefully... I am not as thin as I was, but I still think that my look is unique... and I am happy this way... I am not fat by any means, I am a comfortable size for my personality and my style and I think that is ok.
I have been tailoring my work choices and such around that for about a year now and am content.
But he is really laying on the pressure here.

I know that with a little extra effort, I could achieve what he wants me to, but really, I have a hard time working for something that I don't "need" for myself to be happy, I am happy as I am.
This sucks. And is a huge blow to my self confidence.