I simply have to say it's great...just so great...
I never thought I could be this happy, and I can bet it'll much better later down the road . . . Yeah . . .
And it's good to know I'm not the only guy in the world who is looking for the right girl (or in my case, found :P). Most everyone thinks love is a game, and in a sense, it is: a very serious game of life. It's not about how many men/women/critters you can sleep with before you die, but about the lives that you impact. True Love is the ultimate impact: it can make or break anybody.
Ironically, I was just about to give up on love when she came into my life. We met at a picnic at which many of my friends were at, but as much fun as I was having, I kept looking over where she was sitting . . . alone. I hate to see people alone, because I was for a very long time myself. It was painful, and I didn't want her to feel that way. No one should have to feel that way.
I was just trying be friendly, saying hello and the works, trying to make friends with a stranger . . . for whom I had a surprising attraction to. My mind wasn't filled with lust at all, even though she's gorgeous :P We began talking, just normal conversation, and later in, we had begun revealing some personal things to each other without realizing. It was very strange indeed . . .
It was a Wednesday, so I invited her to go to church with me later. If she didn't have previous plans, she said she would've love to come. During service, I just couldn't stop thinking about her. I have some crazy ADD, so it was odd that I couldn't stop focusing on a single subject. Later that night, I had called her, and I learned more about her than I would have ever expected in a single day. My body began reacting to my emotions; feeling warm, chest tightening, butterflies in my stomach, and I just couldn't do a thing about it . . . until she asked "Do you like me? Like, really like me?"
Time stopped.
I have been asked that question before, but I had not had those feelings for the girls that asked me. It was different this time; I did like her, a lot, and for reasons beyond my comprehension. I replied "Yes, I believe I do." She then said "I think I like you, too." And I felt . . . happy. For the first time in my life, I felt truly happy. If someone had tapped our line, they could hear smiles in both our voices. I finally asked her to be my girlfriend, and she accepted my proposal. I then began my first romantic relationship . . . with her . . .
Things were going excellently at first, but some two months in . . . it started going downhill. I kept messing up, and doing the stupidest things without realizing, and she just got sick of it . . . and so, she began to test me . . .
My first break-up.
We split up for about a month, and I hated every second she wasn't mine. It was painful, I felt so much pain, more than I thought I could deal with. I wanted to die, just so it would go away. But I couldn't die, I had sworn that if I could help it, I would not die on her.
We still hung out, but I couldn't hold her, kiss her, or tell her I love her, no matter how much I desired to. It took everything I had not to have an emotional explosion, cause there's no telling where that'd go. I never stopped being her friend though, and that was . . . surprisingly, comforting to her . . .
Even though we weren't "together", the feelings we had were still there, and they just kept growing . . .
My test was over.
"Do you want me back?"
"More than anything."
"Then take me back . . .
and don't ever let me go again."
And so, I did . . .
Without a doubt, I want to be with this girl for the rest of my life; I just can't picture myself without her. And I'm preparing to make it happen . . .
I'm in love, and I like it . . . I don't want it to go away . . . ever . . .
I hope everyone gets to experience this in their lifetime, as it is unrivaled and unmatched. No feeling can compare to love, and I'm glad I got to feel it . . .
