I sit alone with the uneasiness of what is to come; what has already been and where I am headed. I know the past; and often I feel a sense of realization with regards to the future...yet today I am a broken mess. Today I say goodbye to part of my past; a large part of the present and what I thought was our future. Today I have to say goodbye to you; and honestly it is too much to even consider as to how I go about doing exactly that. Our plans where on the horizon; that is before you were taken from my life so unexpectantly. The plans to carry on with this lifelong friendship that could only offer us an escape from what we have known so far. So the journey begins again; alone to find this piece of serenity we have all heard of. This place in life where the trials become a little less prevelant and the good truly outweighs the bad. I search because I cannot give up the hope that I will find it; and whereever you are you will be with me when I arrive. I must find it for you; for my children; for myself. I must find it to know for myself if what they say is true...
