An acquaintance asked me, "You are now 26, but you are still single. You are supposed to have a family of your own. Is it by choice why you are single? Do you have suitors when you were in elementary or high school?"
I would not expect that question coming from a Christian girl who have numerous activities in the church and professes that she has been psychologically and spiritually matured since she joined her church. But, my former accountability partner explained to me that she has struggles of her own. Well, that is a reasonable to hear why she is overeacting in everything she observed on me.
I am also a normal person like her who have also struggles. And, I am not ashamed of that. Most relatives and friends told me that I am not attractive and intellectual enough to grab a boyfriend. Most of them advise me to follow the fad diets to achieve the best results. Some of them are implementing to put make-up on my face and wear skimpy and over revealing outfits to attract guys. I would not considering any of these counsels from non-experts because I am not comfortable. My body, which is the temple of the Living God, knows exactly what is the suitable diet and proper dress code.
As a matter of fact, I only listen to the certified counselors who can give me proper counsels. The real counselors told me that it is better if I seek first the kingdom of God. I can find the kingdom of God in my heart at the time I am able to love others, including enemies, as they are children of God. Praying and having devotional time with God are regarded as tools for me to know God better.
What I lived for is to find the kingdom of God in my heart, which I am able to love others as children of God. And, my ideal man would have proper upbringing who fears God and respects me as a woman and loves me as a child of God.
