“Love is the difficult realization that something other than oneself is real.” - Iris Murdoch
Two years already… wow, who would have thought it would go by this fast. I certainly didn't, and to be honest, I wasn't sure it was going to make this far. That may sound like a negative statement to make, but it's the truth and there are reasons behind it.
A long time ago I decided that it was time to pursue something more meaningful out of life, like a relationship. It wasn't an easy decision for me, I mean; I was a typical bachelor living the typical bachelor lifestyle. There was never food to be found in the fridge, just water and beer. I was going to the bar as often as I could, as most single men do in there 20's. Doing what most men normally do at that stage of their life. I'll be honest, I enjoyed it.
Somewhere along the way, I got side-tracked. I met an unbelievable girl and my single life fell apart. That's not a complaint. Within one date we had decided to give the whole boyfriend / girlfriend thing a chance. At the time I was seeing a few girls and was never really looking for anything serious. But she changed all that. After that date, I had basically stopped seeing everyone else so I could focus my attention on my new Girlfriend. It was a weird feeling for me at the time; having a “girlfriend” again. I had spent so long convincing others and myself I wanted nothing serious. I didn't want to settle down, and I wasn't a big believer of polygamy.
I had tried it in the past, but it never worked out. So when it was all starting up again, I questioned if it would really work. But I figured it was best to give it an honest try, than to dance around it or worry if it was going to work or not.
That was then, this is now. It's been a wonderful time thanks to a very special woman. Any worries I've had about it not working are long gone, and the single life feels like a lifetime ago. This girl has been so good to me on so many levels. She doesn't realize just how much she means to me, or just how much her influence has meant to my life. Sure I tell her I love her, but those words just can't do my true feelings justice sometimes. I've never been one to get emotional and revealing in terms of my feelings, even if it is the woman I love, but I do what I can to convey that I am happy and very much in love.
These past two years have been amazing. The only thing that would have made them any better was spending more time with each other. If we had our way, we would be joined at the hip all day every day. However, we're making due and enjoying the time we do share and we have our whole lives ahead of us. I look forward to our future and I cherish the memories we have made so far. I'll never forget how proud I was of her a few weeks ago when she spent an entire weekend with my family and friends at various gatherings. She's normally a shy girl, but she opened up and was able to be herself with everyone. No one knows what to expect when someone is quiet and reserved all the time, so it was nice to see everyone get to enjoy the woman I know and love.
We both have done some changing during the past couple years, me to a life of commitment, and thinking about someone else other than myself. Her with the steps she's taking to becoming an independent woman. I couldn't be more proud of her, and the love I have for her. She is a woman who means the world to me and I am so happy to have her in my life. I could not ask for a better woman to share my life with and I look forward to our future whatever it may hold in store for us. We are very different people, and as much as that can make a relationship difficult, it can also be helpful as it gives us a different view on things. One thing I know we can agree on is that we would not be the people we are today without each other. For that I am thankful. I know she loves me very much, and that is more than I could ever want. I can see it in the way she looks at me. I know she cares by all of the support she offers. I love and appreciate all of it, the things she does for me, the way she goes out of her way to make sure I'm happy, everything about her makes me happy. It's really more than I could ask for, and I hope I am able to show her half the love she has shown me. Here's to the past two years and to many more ahead. I Love You Pumkin!
