Standing in the middle of a packed train during rush hour. So many people surround me. People reading, listening to music, talking or sleeping. All kinds of people of all kinds of nationalities. Some look happy, sad, upset or frustrated. Others are either tired, sleepy or have a blank look on their faces. As I stand in the middle of these people, I begin to question myself “How do I look?” Do I look like one of these people?
Here I am surrounded by so many people but its as if I'm in a dream. K Everyone is in motion but no sound is coming from them. My body moves past them and they don't seem to notice me. Is this a dream? This is the same train and pretty much the same time I take it every day to go to work but why does it feel so different?
The train is crowded when it pulls into the train station. The platform is also full of people anxiously waiting to get on the train. I'm here among these people, but feel alone, apart from everyone. It's as if I'm in a glass box looking out but nobody sees me. This reminds me of those mirrors in an interrogation room. You could see the person being interrogated but they couldn't see you.
This is not the first time this happens. It has happened before at parties, at home, on the street and at school. Not sure why it happens but it does. Nobody should feel alone, isolated and unaffected by everyone. In an instant, sound return, people are shoving me out of the train doors and I step onto the platform. Everything is back to normal.
