So as my days as a Freshman here at West Liberty State college come to an end, I find myself thinking an awful lot. Wondering if all of the struggle was worth it in the end and oddly enough the answer that I find seems to be yes. If you would have asked me if my college experience was a worthwhile one about a month ago, I would have said no, but lately things are changing - for the better.
During this year I learned a lot, but unfortunately most of it was not in class. For starters, I learned that everybody has to grow up sometime. Some people just let it happen and others fight it. It's those that fight it that you must be patient with, for they are scared shitless about the future. I was one of those who chose to fight reality, but when I finally let it win - it was an enlightening experience. It's like I see every thing in a whole new perspective, because it's not just about me anymore. It's about the world and the people in it and how my actions are possibly going to effect them. I'm not going to even try to lie to you and say that sometimes I wish I never would have let myself grow up, because things are so much less complicated when you are a kid. However, it is the complexity of adulthood that helps you create the person you want to be in the long run.
That's another thing I have learned is that life isn't about finding yourself, it's about creating yourself. I always thought you spent your whole life looking for that awesome person you want to be and it turns out I was wrong. You have to figure out who you want to be and then strive to become it. It's not easy but that's what makes it so fulfilling. The day you can get up out of bed and look in the mirror and smile at who you've become is the day you have created yourself. Remember, it is your masterpiece and some people have different tastes in art, so don't be too offended when some one doesn't like your creation. However, it works both ways, there is usally some type of an inspiration for someones piece though, so we should all step back, admire it, and make a lively attempt to appreciate it for what it's worth.
Also, I have learned that looking for love is STUPID. If you spend your whole life looking, it's possible that you will have skimmed by the very person who is perfect for you. Things eventually all fall into place, but it takes time.
I know alot of people will find this one as a shock to,but I've decided that the whole world should learn to both forgive and forget. It's a pretty important concept. Sometimes life is weird and people's feelings get hurt unintentionally. But it's the reactions of those who are hurt that kill the other person. On the other hand, I suppose that it is the reactions of the hurt that allow you to see who the other person really is. And just so you know and there is no question about it - the words,"I'm Sorry" are the hardest words in the world to say. So, when someone says them don't put your hands over your ears, instead use them to embrace the person who just swallowed their pride.
Yes, indeed guys I am growing up and you know what? It feels good. I don't think I would change a thing.
So, when you look back on your life and think off all the good things that happened, don't be sad. Don't shed one tear. For it was all of those frienships that faded into memories and the broken hearts that made tears fall that molded you into who you are today.
