I love women! I have to make that plainly clear. I mean, if you knew me personally, that would be quite obvious. Although I'm not one of these roving, oversexed Lotharios that you see foaming at the mouth as they hit on everything in a short skirt. No, I have class. Whether it's the natural progression of evolution or the health of my cerebral cortex, I've learned to keep my animalistic urges in check - at least until the lights go out!
But what I seem to be learning is that my love for women is only rewarded or acknowledged by women who I am just not interested in. I mean, what gives?
In analyzing my past, and making notations and marks for every girl that has ever made her feelings for me known, I've come to a rather disconcerting conclusion: the attractive girls don't seem to like me!
And I'm not trying to be mean here or to act as if I'm some sort of prize that is extremely rare and can only be had by one lucky contestant. No, I'm actually being honest and forthright and real as I can. Throughout my rather short life - thirty-three years - I haven't exactly set the dating world on fire with my exploits. Truth be told, I'm a very shy and timid person at my core, and that has definitely been a huge impediment to my dating and/or love success.
But that still doesn't change the fact that I've never had one of the real sexy or attractive girls pay attention to me. The kind of girl that you see while driving down the street that causes you to momentarily forget what plant you're on and where you're going - I've never had one of those! The closest I've ever come to actually getting physical with one is when I'm lying in my bed at night fantasizing about all these women that I just can't get! Sure, it's better than nothing, and it does relieve a certain amount of frustration and aggression, but it's not the real thing!
So, what I'm wondering is, does the type of person that one attracts naturally reflect their own attractiveness level? I mean, if a person is a 7 on a scale of 1 to 10, is it natural for that person to only attract other 7's? Is it not possible for a 7 to attract an 8.5 or even a 9? And I'm not saying that I'm a 7 or an 8.5 or a 9, I'm just speaking hypothetically here. Truth be told, I've never been sure of my own attractiveness level. But when you go through your life and never have one of the good-looking girls pay attention to you, it doesn't do a lot in terms of making you feel very attractive. Capish?
And if that's the case, that we all wind up with someone who matches us physical attractiveness, then that just plain sucks! Unless of course you are one of the lucky ones to have been blessed with great beauty. And if that's you I hate you!
So, where all this brings me is to a point where I'm just not sure what to think. Either I'm not all that attractive - certainly not ugly - or it's been my innate shyness and timidity that has kept me off the radar of some of the more attractive women. And I don't mean to demean any of the girls that have showed an interest in me up to this point. None of those girls were ugly or disgusting, it's just that they weren't what I would naturally pursue or be attracted to.
So, I either have to lower my standards and force myself to become attracted to women that I don't find attractive, or I should continue to play the lottery and hope for the best. After all, from what I've seen of this world, having a large bank account can do wonders for a guy's attractiveness level and dating options!
