Phase 1: At Midnight
At Midnight I cuddle to my pillow and spoil myself in delightful powers, as the sweet aroma lingers in the air from spirits of my favorite and most sensual fragrances.
Midnight is when I become the infant of the night, very young, treated tenderly, but relatively immature.
Midnight is when I'm sweetly pampered as I enjoy the absence of womanhood.
Phase 2: At Dawn
At dawn, I find morning trekking in a struggle from the midnight hours. Here, like a toddler, I engage in reaching and grabbing for everything in sight. I'm curious about all that I see, hear, taste, smell and feel. A feeling of newness occurs, as I look upon the mornings dew and hear the chirping's of God's most wonderful creatures as I remember the visions of my dreams.
The sunlight brings a shadow that masks the awareness of my presence time and age, leaving me in awe, and yet so excited to be a part of this new day, in the absence of my womanhood.
Phase 3: At Midday
At Midday I'm fresh and anew as most teens are. Not only do I think that I am ready for what is coming my way, but I'm lurking and seeking for the exciting things that have not yet crossed my path.
I'm weaning away from mom and dad, wanting quickly to become an adult, expediting into my parents world and still loving the childish pleasures of my life. Confusion and delusions entraps my mind. Freedom seek, as I phase into the “I want to be stage”. I'm still enjoying the absence of my womanhood.
Phase 4: In the Evening
The evening has arrived; and my womanhood is sure to come. Evening is the settling between sunset and bedtime, this is my maturing phase, my time for adulthood. Reality sets in and I'm discovering that when evening comes maturity is formed. This is the time for preparing for my midnight, my dawn and my midday. Reflections of all the phases shed light on who I am and need for maturing in the woman whom God wants me to be. Evening, the time between twilight and complete darkness welcomes me, and cast merits upon my beings, by allowing me another day to encounter the presence of God and His love. The sky sinks deep into the night, the stars bring light and the moon become bright, beginning the recycling of all my phases, that eventually introduces me to my womanhood.
