I used to go back in time to when we were together and I realized that if I want to spend my days with him, I should start by paying more attention to how I feel.
After a long rooming, with a friend from Muntinlupa and moved on to Makati, which I used to work for years. It all started while having a fine dinner to my favorite carinderia. Someone whom I asked a favor... pitches of cold water. But there was something in this man that appealed to me, his sunny sweet smile, which I instantly feel in love. Well, that would be a good start, though we are not properly introduced to one another, I knew him for I sees him often. He does not only cute; he's common girls fantasy in Midland. His stall "johnny d' goldsmith" just across the computer shop often than not, can resist even to give him a glance (he doesn't have a cue about it, well, leave it to the expert) truly, he's such a heartthrob that makes girl's heart sigh. Soon enough, I find him such a kidder he's always putting me on. Whenever I passes by over his stall, he feeling the vibes, holding my hands as I jest, "hands off please!" sometimes at night, while having to watch basketball game over the TV (Gins vs. SMB) he quoted saying, "gins, loser!" hmmp! Blubberhead! (needless to say, beermen fanatic) that way he sounds so boastful. As I avers, "Ok, fine, it's your day!" The other day, he approached me in the middle of our lively chatted (with kuya Dan) you know what? He is such a scene-stealer! He interrupts the conversation we had, yet kuya Dan out in his place.
He told Jan, who happens was there, (kuya Jan kid a certain friend of mine whom fondly call me love.) "Give my kiss of her, that's probably mine. Will you woe me for her?" then he tap my legs once again (almost giggling) when I'm with ate Emy he approached me once again to predict but I insisted "no!" well, I guess everything seems started coming in after some days as our paths had cross again and again, at the same time to the same place. I got to wonder he often call me "babes" asking what dishes have I order. What's more confusing when his friend tease us has this to jests, "you too look resemblance huh, her hair just a bit longer than yours" as Johnny assert "our skin color might look the same (of course not, infairness he has a fair skinned, I had caramel skinned that time) "huh, shun. Once you two gets married you fed up one another." Huh! I was stunned. What an offensive joke! I was blushed a shade of pink that almost matched my suit. But it's ok, it adds to the fun of it. After the dinner was over "babes I'll go ahead", when I have to go home "babes are you going?" my ways to point out "what a nerve you call me that way?" he smiled shyly saying, "something wrong about it?" "Yah" I injects (but deep inside, its sounds good and music to my ears) "but why?" he interrogates "just... nothing" I adds, "it's for us" he avers "us? There is no us" I demurs.
The other day, when I drop to nearby stall chatting as usual, mind you, some guys drop by in the stall, soon, the stalls crowd favorite stand by passers, the ending I win a lot of friends and eventually suitors. (What a long hair I got) One time I caught Johnny staring at me, not even once, as I had chatted to a certain friend. I approach him when I have to go with Rannie behind who walked over to me. Johnny looked on me 3 x winks in his eyes. I had notice he was jealous. The other day he confront me being vocal to his feeling and injects, "you make me jealous, you had bf already huh," (thinking that we Rannie are already on) I just keep mum.. It's a part of the thrill after all. There's something in him that I admire most, stroking my hair his winsome and sweetest ways of approach every time our paths cross, seeing me alone or with company behind, not even kuya willy or nino around. When I was alone, he drop by at the computer shop "you seem so busy playing games huh" then out of the blue, I had notice his behavior to get near me with a message beyond his words "I love you." I feel amazed as I cast a quick glance; he then seems like balloons fading away. Yah, how fast it was!
Deadma for succeeding day. It's a part of the thrill anyways... he could resist approaching me, but this time, "I had a crush on you, you do too?" I quips "Me, of course not" "admit it! Me, already admit it," he point out. I just don't say so, I let it a word puzzle on him. Then he invites me to lunch, we start going out more often, eat out together and eventually fall in love with each other. (I did not give him hints however, the signs were obvious) the other day, while have some sort of chat with ate Emy, he near watching us, he set aside then, since ate and I had a great conversation, (about a movie we watch.) I was notice his behavior as he grab, paper, pencil then he began jotting down something and began gazing me every single then, later where he asks me to read it has this wry caption: "I love you" gosh, it touches my heart's core! What a wonderful pencil portrait of mine came out, (how perfect its draw would turn out to be! I was often amazed at his art process the wonderful of its outcome! Check it on my friendster) later, I snatched the portrait (of course without his knowing), In addition, I sent him a missive and it goes like this... "You are someone I would like to know for you are like a candle that glows, you brighten and lighten my days, your looks and sunny sweet smile makes me happy. Sign off A girl with a 1 million dollar smile of 143, love St., romance Vill., sweetheart city 14344 (seems corny) As he receive it without knowing mine.
He makes a sign call as our paths about to cross but I'm keeping a distance (kuya witness the scene teasing me, "oi, I'll let this auntie known") Johnny insisted if I was the one who sent the letter. Led to chat sometime, there were bidding goodbye. So sad, but I had promise him to be back as soon as I finish my degree. The other day, before I left someone give me a note, what a pleasant surprise! It goes like this... "This may crazy or corny, but I had the right to be happy, you've got a crush on me, don't hesitate to tell me let your feelings open and be set free like mine did." I laughs. I simply keep neither mum, confirming, nor denying. While having my trip back to the bicol, it is really quite nice remembering. And the portrait I've stare it at least a million times. It gives me my daily source of smiles and inspiration. But the promises flush down the drain by no less than I was. It's too late to realized, after 6 years but he still considers it. Afterwards, the history repeats itself this time; it's the other way around. It was him left does the promise, "I will miss you, wait for me huh?" I avers, "surely, I will. On my word of honor I do solemnly swear." The promise made this time... or, the promises made to be broken again. Let us see...
