There is so much drama going on right now in your life that you didn't realize that your own heart has grown as cold as ice. You have forgotten what was most important to you. You are not sorry or even have a single regret for the pain you caused the ones you love most or another person. Letting go of your pain or fears is out of the question and saving your self from the darkness that you live in is impossible. You are all alone, no one to talk to. Has the wrong in your life made to much of an impact on you, is there really no turning back now. Can you really be this damaged?
You are surround by the rage that locks inside of you. Feel nothing but loss. You can see yourself going down in a spiral, and you do nothing to stop it. What would be the point, you'd pick yourself back up and end up back at rock bottom. Wishing you were some where else, that you could leave this cold dark world behind.
Still feeling the sting from every wrong that you have ever suffered and use that to justify your own wrong doing.
Knowing the betrayal of the ones you called friend you walk away from them. you now have no desire to make any. Believing that everyone in the world is only out for themselves. In defense, you build a wall around your self and allow no one to break though it, you trust no one.
The word, sorry, has lost it's meaning. No one is sorry if they keep doing things they know hurt you, in return you bring cruelty to them. Are you proud of yourself, How you made them cry.
Then an event happens, something so wrong, extremely horrible. You for the first time in a long time you feel regret.
You have terrified the most important people in your life, that you must now take a closer look at yourself. You know you must find away to stop drowning your dark world in a bottle. This is not the way you want them to see you. Taking the time to face your pains and fears is the start to healing yourself, taking down the wall and joining humanity again would be good too. You will do what you have to, to make sure that they never walk down this road.
You feel hope coming back, a ray of light has just broken though the darkness. You know that you have the power to chang for the better. The road to healing will be long and trying. But you will find away to save yourself from the darkness and show them that the world isn't always cold. Realizing love is the most powerful feeling that anyone could ever have, you have just found your faith once again.
